Confessions of an Eventrepreneur

I am neither proud of this, nor even sure I am ready to admit it out loud, but I sort of…may have…definitely did…steal someone else’s dream. Ugh, I hate even typing it. Just feels so low. So dirty. And just utterly embarrassing.

I had become discouraged in my initial pursuit and so desperate for change and a more manageable goal that I convinced myself that someone else’s entrepreneurial aspiration was my own. It seemed easy and attainable. They seemed happy. People around me approved. There was little risk. Why not?

I labored through hours of research, I networked, I conducted interviews, I practiced the craft, created marketing materials, shaped social media platforms, looked at retail space and wrote an entire business case…I was fully committed. One problem. I was miserable. A stressed out, emotional, insecure, B*tch.

This is just what it takes when you are chasing that Entrepreneur unicorn, right?

I was casually confessing over the phone with my most keep-it-real friend, that it had been so long since I did laundry that I went commando to my daughter’s birthday party the day before. She abruptly replied,

“That is not ok. You need to stop. Don’t do anything for a week, and then come back to it with fresh eyes. You sound crazy.”

I cried right there on the phone. Real, ugly face crying too. I knew she was right and felt thankful to be granted permission.

So for a week, I removed it from my thoughts. No research. No networking. No outlines. No to-do-lists. Instead, I did ALL of the neglected laundries, organized my office, took my daughter horseback riding, went to the pool, got a pedicure, got my hair done, journaled, meditated, had a beer with my husband on the back porch and became truly present. The elephant finally stepped off my chest. I no longer felt the knot in my stomach and the tense furrow in between my eyes began to relax.

As the end of the week approached, I could feel the dread wash over me at the thought of returning to the process. It shouldn’t feel like this. But how could I start over? What about all that time and energy. The people I told. The mentors that had helped me. Am I letting them down? Am I just scared and looking for a way out before I fail? What would I do instead? Aha!

The creative boomerang smacked me right in the face and my initial pursuit returned to me. Like an ex-lover, you realize all of a sudden is ‘the one.’ Yeah, it wasn’t easy or perfect, but even at its worst, that connection completed you.

So we broke up.

I released myself from the commitment to the stolen aspiration and am finally brave enough to return to my initial love and pursuit. To take action with only that authentic goal in mind. It may be harder, may take longer, may cost me more money, and the success may not be guaranteed, but it is mine. That to me brings me joy, even during its hardest moments.

So be brave, patient, authentic, and listen to your gut. But, most of all, get a keep-it-real friend.

Stay Tuned! The journey has just begun for this eventful gal. Have you started?

Eventfully, Angela

socialmedia headshot 2017A Chicago native, Angela is a self-proclaimed event geek and celebrator of everything. E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! She currently resides with her husband and 3 kids in the Atlanta, GA area and has been the Sr. Meeting and Event Planner for Ingersoll Rand, a global Industrial Company, since 2009. She recently debuted her blog, Eventfully Angela, writing about industry tips and the overall musings of her eventfully crazy life as an event planner and beyond. She can also be found sharing event industry eye-candy on Instagram @eventfullyangela. Thoughts and views shared are her own.

20 thoughts on “Confessions of an Eventrepreneur”

  1. it was just…i loved it!!!
    when you write from the heart everything just becomes so much more beautiful..keep going 🙂

  2. It’s really tough to acknowledge the journey we started may not be the one… and even tougher to make a u-turn.. having said that.. what doesn’t kill you makes u stronger;)

  3. Normally I hate first person narratives but something about your particular style is just irresistible. This was kind of inspirational and not the least bit uneventful 😉

    • Well that is a HUGE compliment. You have started my day in such a positive way! Thank you for stopping in and reading my humble beginnings and even more for this kind compliment

  4. Hello Angela! First of all may I say that you sound like the most fun bubbly person ever! And as I was practically raised by my granny, I was really taken with your section About me. Grannies are the most amazing people and I wish mine was still around too to see my little children. I just have to pass on all of her influence to them as you are obviously doing in your blog. Really brilliant and I thoroughly enjoyed it. Secondly your blog looks fantastic- I’m in complete awe of how all the newbies have done such great jobs. I need to review and improve mine pronto. Good luck with it all!
    Emma Adair

    • Emma I am so touched and honored by your words! Putting yourself out there can be such a scary thing. Not knowing if people will understand or accept what you have to offer. If you will find your tribe of people who get you and connect. But you have single handedly verified why I want to do this!! Thank you for not only taking the time to read my blog, but for this amazing gift. You have overflowed my cup today with your kindness.
      With much gratitude,

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